Take me away to Neverland~
Hello there! Melissa. Filipina.
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Augustus Waters was a self-aggrandizing bastard. But we forgive him. We forgive him not because he had a heart as figuratively good as his literal one sucked, or because he knew more about how to hold a cigarette than any nonsmoker in history, or because he got eighteen years when he should’ve gotten more.’
‘Seventeen,’ Gus corrected.
‘I’m assuming you’ve got some time, you interupting bastard.
‘I’m telling you,’ Isaac continued, ‘Augustus Waters talked so much that he’d interupt you at his own funeral. And he was pretentious: Sweet Jesus Christ, that kid never took a piss without pondering the abundant metaphorical resonances of human waste production. And he was vain: I do not believe I have ever met a more physically attractive person who was more acutely aware of his own physical attractiveness.
‘But I will say this: When the scientists of the future show up at my house with robot eyes and they tell me to try them on, I will tell the scientists to screw off, because I do not want to see a world without him.’
I was kind of crying by then.
Sometimes I think about pushing everyone away and just being alone but I know that’s not gonna do me any good once it actually happens :/
There’s so many things that mess with my head and I’m scared that if it keeps happening, I’m going to grow some mental problems or something. My mind is just a mess and I keep trying to fight back things and I’m so confused and I just want to disappear. Every time I want to reach out to someone, I come to close to tell them and then I change my mind because I tell myself that I can handle it and it’ll be ok when really, it’s just unhealthy and it only makes me feel more alone and close up. But I’m just scared no one will care I guess and I’m scared people will get tired of me because the most important people in my life have gotten tired of me and I think that it has forever changed my life. I’m going to go crazy and I don’t know what to do about it.